family in the dark

i am in an apartment sitting in front of a computer. i am doing something, but i'm not quite sure. all of a sudden dylan and leah walk into the room, it's the living room and they are talking about how they are here to pick up a few things. i think about how it is strange they would still have an apartment in savannah when they had moved over a year ago, but i never say anything. i am in a car, i think it's a taxi cab, because i am not driving. i arrive in front of a home, outside are a bunch of little black kids fighting over a bicycle. and in the driveway is a little white kid. he's my cousin (though he doesn't really exist) i walk up to him and talk to him. i know what house i am in front of now, it's my grandparents' and i feel anxious about going inside. i finally give in to the dread and go inside. the layout is different than what i remember, the first person i see is my uncle terry sitting in a chair to my left. i walk over toward him and this is when i see my father and grandmother sitting in chairs on the right. i go and give my uncle a hug and then walk over to where my grandmother is. this is when i see my father act like he's going to get up while i pass him and then he decides better and stays seated. my grandmother seems to have to ponder whether or not to get up but she ends up doing so. she looks alot skinnier than i had ever seen her before and she gives me what seems like a reluctant hug. my father still doesn't get up and isn't really looking at me, so i decide to walk into the other room. i sit in a chair and the room i am in is really dark. i can hear my aunt robin somewhere, yet i never actually see her.

i wake up